Too Match

Currently playing: "Spunk" by Greek Buck

43 hours ago.
I was exchanging messages with the Pretty Fly for a White Fag (PFWF).
I freaked out.
I laughed.
I emphatized.
With him.
And I was just fine.
But 15 minutes ago.
He spoiled my supposed-to-be-ooohhhh-so-lovely-day!
He'd affected me for 11 minutes.
And I suddenly realized that it was the ugly consequence of me flirting to a PFWF.
Phew!

Well,
he was one of the beautiful pink trial packs that I got from my July package.
He's undeniably (but) too pretty to handle.
And he shouldn't be thinking that I'm into him.
He's too "too".
And he's too much for a goddess.
He's a heavenly creature as per say,
and I am forever wicked.
Yes.
I appreciate kindness.
But too much kindness is offensive.

We'd still see each other in the office.
He'd threw signs to greet.
He'd smile but I'd smirk.
I just don't know why I can't greet him on the lobby everytime I bumped on him.
I just feel weird.
Yeah,
I'm weird and he's queer.
I even sent a private message stating my awkardness.
He wonder.
I don't give explainations.
I'm not fond with details.

Now,
I hate him.
I know he'd laugh at me.
I don't care.
He can die laughing,
seriously.
End of his story.

Gay on the Menu 3

Currently playing: "Proud" by Heather Small

It's raining men.
Straight men.
Bi-married men.
Gay men.
Amen.

Started my August with replays of "Queer as Folk".
This time,
best pick-up lines and punchlines are being scribbled on my old filofax while I'm bombarded with emails from rumored gay people.
New gay acquaintances.
Meeting old gay friends.
And spend brunch with close gay friends.
I've been trying to skip the workshop every now and then everytime I feel the depletion of my braincells.
I need straight sex comes weekend.
That's for sure!

Queer-do!

Currently playing: "Dive in the Pool" by Barry Harris

I'm taking the plunge but I'm up for the chances.
T's a very long week.
And there will be a lot of big events.
Good luck!

Sob Marine

Currently playing: "Today" By Stick Boy

Sometimes you feel like crying with reasons unknown you'll burst into tears wondering why there's the sudden feeling.

Hopeless Lunatic

Currently playing: "Maybe It's You" by Regine Velasquez

Undying question for almost a month now,
"why not R?"
Grrrrrrrrr.....

I'm strictly bottom.
I make love with my clothes on.
I prefer kissing than licking.
I'd go sucking tongue than sucking wang.

Recurring answer:
"I'm too hot to handle."

A Week of Weak Wake

Currently playing: "One Week Of Danger" By The Virgins

The earthquake scare is over.
The false prophet had somehow earned popularity and website incentives.
The telecompanies increased their profits upto 11% (this is fictional).
And I had a good sleep the entire day (this is make-believe).

The entire floor went into chaos when I intentionally pretend to accidentally mail the latest chiz from Gossip Girl.
It was a celebration of shame,
fame and lameness!

Mom's in the city.
She'd just informed me last night.
She arrived last Tuesday but I haven't seen her yet.
I was too tired from work and she's too busy visiting friends and relatives.
I forgot we're clannish.
So we decided to meet tomorrow night for dinner,
and for an emergency reunion party.
Mom said,
everyone's already expecting
-that I'm gay.

R left to think.
But he'll be back soon to join the Gay Pride Band's photo shoot in Portofino.
Everybody still thinks he's gay.
I thought he was.
I still think he is.
Everyone still thinks we have a relationship.
It seems like we have.
But I don't think it's a good idea.
Although,
I missed him.

Strictly Bottom

Currently playing: "Second Hand Lovers" John Ralston

Skinny Bon and Plumpy Jack asked the same question,
"do you wanna be on top?"
The cloud turns green so I said,
"I'm strictly bottom."

Why Not?

Currently playing: "3 Wishes" by The Pierces

Recurring question.
Me and R?
Still a "no" for an answer.
(Just how I wish.)

If he's not in a relationship,
why not?
If he doesn't have a kid,
why not?
If he's a little more masculine,
why not?
If he'll go overboard,
why not?
If he's the one,
why not?
If it's up to me,
totally not!

Rewind.

Came Saturday and Ces arrived in the city just right before I hit the bed and forget "word of honor" again.
We went to Max's in Ayala as what she promised
-spend her 10,000 bucks!
T'was the perfect place to wait for Luther,
nice food,
good service
and a glimpse of Jadey.
We had Sinigang na Tiyan ng Bangus,
Spicy Gambas,
Half order of Max's chicken.
Luther arrived after an hour and had his Asparagus with Tofu.

There goes my prospect,
Jadey.
But I got one similar comments from Ces and Luther,
he looks like MyBigMc.
My illusion died in a snap.

We're already done with the Frozen Fruit Salad when Rose arrived,
a kohai.
We then decided to watch Mamma Mia thinking that I'll be able to take a nap.
But I was wide awake with the entire screening.
The movie was so hilarious,
and I just can't stop singing along with the Abba songs.
Hmmm...
Jessica Zafra will surely go ga-gah with LSS for 6 days straight.

After watching the film,
we headed to TimeZone to grab the microphones and sang our hearts out until closing time.
Luther wanted to party so we tried to check the crowd in Casanova but all seats were taken so last resort was Vudu.
We were the first customers to arrive.
Time check:
9:15 pm.
Too early to party.
And there I got the chance to take a nap only to wake up with Derek Ramsey,
Paolo Paraiso,
Marco Alcaraz and Diether Ocampo shaking their booties infront of me.
I don't usually get starstrucked but these men are undeniably delicious.
I did salivate.
Why not?
I'm only human.

Rated R

Currently playing: "Guess Who" by Nekta

The past few days was totally crazy.
Everybody's thinking that I am going out with R.
"Yes,
I do go out with him.
With friends.
We're friends."
Sounds familiar?
Yes.
But that's the truth!

The lovers J and B insisted that they can sense what's going on.
I said,
"Nothing's going on between me and R.
Maybe,
something's just going on in your nutshells!"

Truth is,
R became the "Man of the Hour".
Just recently.
Uhm...
after knowing him when we were doing "Pugad Baboy..." together.
Well,
R's currently in a domestic partnership.
With a 2 months old kid.
Then,
the girl left for New Zealand a month ago to work.
Everybody knows that I go for married men,
single dads
and bad boys.
But not with someone like R.

He's just recovering from homesickness and sudden loneliness.
And the diversion's with his friends,
and it happens that we (the Pugad Baboy... casts)were the present friends that he had at the time.
Until he got used to be with us.
Most of the time,
with me.
And even when we were assigned back to the primetime with our own teams,
he'd still find ways to sit beside me every now and then.
There wasn't any malice about it.
Not until the first question popped up from the Queen of the Grenadine Bolz,
"Everybody's asking if he's your new boyfriend?"
Of course...
"not!"
And I asked myself,
"why not?"

Jaded

Currently playing: "Nice Sweet Sexy" by Difx Ft. Imperio & Cru

Sleepless.

After yesterday's breakfast,
the Gay Pride Band decided to meet up at the station for the distribution of funds.
We then headed to Ayala and had lunch at Max's Restaurant.
I was thinking full so I just ordered for a Buko Pandan Special and snatched Rence's Caramel Bar while Xavier,
Rence and Mel feasted on Fiesta Platters,
Fresh Lumpia and Chicken Cheeseburger.
Max's has been one of my favorite resto in the city.
Aside from their Fried Lumpiang Ubod,
I admire their great customer service.
And I found another reason to go back asap
-Jadey.

I had to call Ces to inform her of my latest favorite Max's dish and forced her to treat me this coming Saturday for Chicken Carbonara.
After eating,
I went outside to call my sis but Jadey sat beside me.
And he gave me a sign.
My pheromone flooded on Ayala's groundfloor.

What's Eating Frigid Jones?

Currently playing: "The Ice Is Getting Thinner" by Death Cab For Cutie

I'm now weighing 103lbs and I got my 29" waistline back.
The process of losing 40lbs in 2 months-time was crazy.
This is all for the role of my new show where my character's required to appear like a typical Japanese teenager.
Harrriiiggg!

I've been receiving a lot of mails lately asking how I'd trimmed down in just 8 weeks.
There were speculations about me taking drugs,
manic depressions,
bulimia,
bankrupcy,
and a whole lot of nasty rumors.
I hate explaining things but I have to defend myself from those malicious accusations.
I was just starving.
No drugs.
I'm not sick.
I'm still earning.
I've been nasty,
yes.
And again,
I was just on a starvation diet.

Late greeting:

Happy Birthday K!
It's her 23rd birthday and the bitch is still a certified virgin.
Well,
we have agreed to roll her out on a raffle if she'll remain intact until next year.
Kisses to the ultimate brateneellah!

The Nth Shock

Currently playing: "The Beginning" by Alice Peacock

T's the new season with an all new episode
-of my so-called dragged life.
I'm back on the primetime with some unknown but expected surprises.
Revived diva issues.
Rephrased whinings.
Recycled faces.
Retrieved feelings.
Recalled events.
(Add your thoughts here.)

I set my eyes again to the brightly-lit office building that welcomes back his long lost fag-hag vampeerella.

And my eyes blur.
I'm going blind.
Nah!
My eyes' already used waking up on normal times.
The entrance was mobbed by the lung cancer candidates creating clouds of smoke promoting mortality.
Freshening up for work and conditioning your hair doesn't really matter after you crossed the crowd of chainsmokers.
And being one of them is toxic.

Then,
I sank into a sudden frustration.
I no longer want the limelight.

Rewind.

Sunday was an Emperor day.
I was supposed to pick-up Ces at 12 noon but I got up late.
As usual.

I was partying with the "Pugad Baboy" casts the previous night.
It was the team's farewell party.
And,
as what was expected.
A star-studded night and the most awaited showdown of the Cruzes minus Sunshine.
Overflowing drinks.
Bloopers replayed.
Drama excerpts.
And another hang-over.

I met up Luther and Ces at La Maison.
It was almost 3 o'clock in the afternoon.
They already took their lunch within two hours waiting for the prima donna .
I was shamelessly starving when I arrived.
They were already having pretzels in chocolate fondue.
Luther's lunch treat's Braised Baby Backribs and Penne Cioppino.
I drowned it with a hot brewed coffee then I had a Green Mango Shake.
T'was my first time in La Maison and the service was pretty good.
I'd definitely go back for La Maison's Spareribs.

We headed to Luther's hotel and watched replays of the Gossip Girl over a dozen of
donuts.
We're meeting Ms. MD at 7 PM so we 're able to watch five episodes.
Jonathan's supposed to be with us earlier that day but it was Manny Pacquiao's fight so we considered his absence.
Meeting place was at The Walk's Mooon Cafe but the place was full and we needed to be on the waitlist.
We decided to try Pier One which is just located upstairs.
And guess who's in the city?