Whining

Currently playing: "Hell's Kitchen" by Maxim

Fifth day of training and I'm starting to get upset.
If I could only quit,
I would,
right away!
I'm sick and tired.
I'm literally sick and tired.
Aside from how the training goes,
my body's in a state of withdrawal.
I don't know if it's just a withdrawal syndrome;
I stopped taking my food supplements for a week now.
My system is not functioning well ever since I started working on morning shift,
I'm nocturnal.
I am for my entire life.
My mom would attest to this;
I get sleepy and disoriented during the day.
My brain (0.97% braincells) would only function at night,
yes,
I have a brain (0.97% braincells is working)!
And when I was ordered to attend the ACE training my life was changed
-undesirably.
I'm missing my breaks on time.
I'm skipping lunch.
Horrifying zits popping on my face.
Headache won't go away for days now.
My body temperature's always rising,
racing with my blood pressure.
I have been gasping for air.
My heart's beating faster than ever.
And my body suffers at the end of the day.
Physically stressed.
Emotionally depressed.
Mentally abused.
Spiritually oppressed.
The entire training and the mystery behind it is totally upsetting me now.
The pressure in this job which I enjoyed before is starting to run into my nerves.
My body's no longer taking it.
My mind's saying to quit.
My heart's no longer saying "I love my job".
I really want to quit.
I almost figured out why I'm here.
And my concluson is not really pleasant.
The next thing I know,
my self-esteem's in the garbage can.
I turned out to be worser than ever.
The training makes me paranoid.
The long "avail time" freaks me out.
The normal life as a laborer is panicking.
I need a therapist!
I'm going crazy.