Post-Valentine Survey

Currently playing: "Love and Terror" Merril Bainbridge

"How's your lovelife?",
frequently asked question recently.

"Lovelier.",
if I see myself first.
I have been thinking of me loving myself alone after I took the holiday vacation or I'd say after i started letting go all of the men in my life.

I can only remember three official boyfriends;
if making a relationship official requires the exchange of "i love you" and "yes" confirmations in verbatim,
then it'll make it four.
Or if sex closes a deal as a commitment then I'd had 11 serious relationships then.
But I can only name a few of men that I considered to be my boyfriends.
And there are...
hmmm...
let me go through it one by one.
I told you I'm not good in numbers.

The four official relationships that I considered was with James,
Rico,
Jan Marc and Ichi.
The latter's might not aware that I considered him as one of my official exes.
Aaaarrrggghhh....
Thinking of those men,
I lost my appetite.